Indecisiveness

Ever since I started college I have been looking forward to graduation and now that it is finally here, it is, well, somewhat terrifying. Don't get me wrong, I am proud and excited to graduate with a degree in Psychology, but it's scary not being a hundred percent certain as to what the future holds (especially in this economy).

It's funny, I had been so sure about what I wanted to do since I was in middle school and I never had a single doubt. I knew I wanted to go into psychology and eventually become a therapist/social worker. Now that I have less than 2 months before graduation, I am suddenly having doubts, LOTS of them. I've started to wonder mostly if I could a) handle the emotional strain of social work and b) be happy with living on such a low income. I even started to consider getting a second degree in nursing instead. Afterall, I'd still be helping people, just in a different way and I would get better money.

I was accepted into the University of Maryland, Baltimore School of Social Work and I have 3 weeks to make my deposit to secure a spot. This basically means I have 3 weeks to make a decision about the rest of my life. My mom keeps telling me I have plenty of time to make a decision and that no decision cannot be reversed, but I do not believe that. How can I reverse 2 years of graduate school and thousands of dollars in student loans if I decide I do not want to be a social worker?

I am going to meet with a career counselor on Thursday and hopefully she will be able to give me some direction. Unfortunately, she cannot make the decision for me, but I kind of wish she would. It would sure take away all the pressure! If anyone is actually reading this blog, please feel free to weigh in and help a lost girl like myself.

What Makes a Fetish a Fetish?

Yay my first blog entry (hopefully not my last)!

My roommate is Asian and while we were looking at pictures of this guy she hooked up with (who is white I think) we noticed that he happened to hang out with a lot of Asian girls. My other friend then said, "Ewww don't date him, he just wants you because he has an Asian fetish." This got me thinking: why is it only considered a fetish when the trait you like about the person is not acceptable to society? If you happen to like fat people, for example, you are considered a "chubby chaser." But if you like skinny girls with big breasts and blonde hair, that's just considered "normal." If someone's physical trait deviates from society, it is deemed unacceptable to be attracted to such a trait. So if you do happen to be attracted to, say Asian women, it just gets written off as a fetish because there could not be any possible logical explanation for why you would be attracted to Asian women. Maybe I am misunderstanding the meaning of the word, but I think we really need to start broadening our standards for what can be considered attrative in our society WITHOUT using words like "fetish."